Changes

August 12, 1987: Even for me, now change is difficult. After all this time away from San Francisco, from the old life, in times of weakness I think back. It's as if I wanted it to return. But it never will. My feelings for Luis--they matter. They matter to me. But that's still not enough. He is the reason why I feel the things I do/did. Without him, there is boredm. A great big boring space.